I (22f) just started a new, very highly sought after job, making it in out of thousands of applicants. It is my fourth day and I know I already hate it. I misunderstood the actual role (which is completely my fault I understand) and am in this position where I am not interested in the work, and it is actually putting me in a position of extreme anxiety where i am crying at home..
Now don’t get me wrong, my team is so nice and have been so welcoming and helpful. But I know this isn’t for me. Everyone is telling me to stick it out. But as well as not liking it and it making me so anxious (I feel like no one really understands how bad anxiety can be and how hard it is to control), I feel guilty that I am wasting their time, money, and recourses on me who isn’t really interested, where they could give this opportunity to someone else who is passionate, due to the competitive nature of this role.
I live at home, so there is no financial burden on me, and I know I can get a job quite quickly in the teaching field as I am a trained teacher if I needed.
Just wondering other people’s opinions.